Since breaking through the depression, I\u2019d found myself going in and out of depression. Thoughts of suicide ran rampant through my mind on a daily basis during the depression, and lets just say it\u2019s a good thing I don\u2019t own a firearm.<\/p>\n
My reasons for trying Transcendental Meditation (TM) stem a lot from the depression I fell into, caused by events following my grandfather\u2019s passing.<\/p>\n
In early November I got shingles, I knew this was from the stress of my grandfather\u2019s passing. I also understood that I was beginning to spiral, though I hid it well from my wife, family and co-workers.<\/p>\n
The catalyst to get me into TM was a breakdown I had at work, caused by an interaction with a co-worker, who said, \u201cI don\u2019t care what\u2019s wrong with you.\u201d His statement sent me over the cliff.<\/p>\n
After work that day I cried in my car for twenty minutes. It was hard sobbing, uncontrollable crying. The type of crying you\u2019d do as a kid. I called my wife on my way home and told her I needed to do something, and soon.<\/p>\n
After that day, I knew I had two choices, be done with living, or truly start living. TM is my way to live.<\/p>\n
When I attended the first introduction meeting I knew I would do it before I walked in. The next week I took my first lesson. That was one week ago. I feel more awake, and for the first time in a very long time, I feel alive.<\/p>\n
TM is a lot like other meditations, except for the mantra. When you learn TM, your teacher gives you a mantra, it\u2019s a word, phrase or combined words which create a tone, that centers you in a way that makes your body drop all its defenses and sends you spiraling into a deep pool of bliss.<\/p>\n
I can\u2019t tell you my mantra, because each one is special to each individual. I keep it as a sacred thing.<\/p>\n
I can only speak of my experience, but TM was my last stop before jumping. I\u2019ve backed away from the cliff in the last week and I\u2019m now more comfortable in my skin than I\u2019ve been since before my parents were divorced, when I was 8.<\/p>\n
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On his blog, Brian writes, \u201cI\u2019m a Writer, dad, Transcendental Meditation practitioner and I have a day job on the Vegas Strip.\u201d If you have any questions or comments for Brian, you can leave them on his original blog post here<\/a>.
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